Baldy Stink
When my cousin Mark was just a kid, my aunt would take him to get his haircut and she always insisted on a crew cut. So they'd take him down to a level 2 or whatever you call just a bit more than shaved and he'd be furiously grumpy for days. And during this horrendous grump, his mother fondly called him "Baldy Stink". I don't think that exactly qualifies as healthy parenting but I always thought it was a hilarious nickname and think of it whenever I get grumpy, and it makes me laugh.
Anybody feeling grumpy? Have you had the feeling that someone is forcing you to do this or are wondering whose idea it was to participate? Yes, it happens. Sometimes this is how our mind rebels when it doesn't like being restricted. This is aversion, one of the main hindrances to living to our fullest potential.
I strongly encourage you to write, write, write and get down to the root of your aversion. It usually goes beyond the food itself. After all, your body just needs fuel, it's your mind that has all the preferences and attachments.
The cleanse diet itself will have a temporary good effect - but I think what we're aiming for is freedom from attachment and aversion. It's nice to think of not being slave to any food, drink or ritual.
Cheer up, your kula is on your side and we're on our way!
Love,
G
posted by Gina Caputo - Yogini On The Loose @ 12:55 PM
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OK, here it comes. I am suprised I guess at the reaction I'm having. I know it goes beyond food. I'm trying to be open and real here. I didn't realize how much stinkin guilt I carry around. It's constant...I've been really listening to myself and it's rediculous because I thought I had dealt with these issues, and here they are again,(BECAUSE I'M EATING HEALTHY?)wonderful!! So I'm no idiot I know I'm most likely in the last phases of dealing with the guilt! What really sucks is I haven't done anything wrong. Except try to be everywhere for everybody all the time, I'm the one who makes everything good for everyone else. (which I now is crazy and impossible. I'm constantly keeping track...OK I spent time with so and so now I could get in a couple of hours here with that person....OH my gosh this other person over here needs a couple of hours(I might be able to get away with just a phone call). I guess what is so hard is seeing and hearing the saddness in my family and friends like I've deserted them. I'm trying to do it with compassion! It feels like the grieving process. Anyway I used to be worse, I thought I was better than I actually am! This I just realized because of the cleanse. Which is so freakin cool actually, because it gives me the opportunity to to work on it! HEy is anybody else out there? I surely can't be the only one with "stuff".
see ya
Melinda
Hi Melinda! Oh yes, I know people are out there with stuff - only not everybody is fearless enough to put it out there. It's one thing I've really hoped for and encouraged but it seems only a rare few are really ready. So just know that even if others aren't putting it out there, lots of heads are shaking as they read your posts. Don't stop, it all helps, you're teaching by example.
oh yes i have stuff too! yes i have been a grump. the last couple of days you could have called me "baldy stink"! i have written in my journal alot. its pretty free form and unadulterated, unfiltered. it does help. my mind isn't real clear yet so its hard to put alot of what i'm thinking or feeling into something that would make sense to someone else. however, it is getting better. i'm alittle hard headed-it took me awhile to figure out that i wasn't eating enough, which contributed to my grumpiness and my muddy mind. today is better-i'm not stewing over not having coffee as much as i was yesterday.
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