Slippery Slope

The Pre-cleanse week has already been quite humorous for me. My intention was to begin the pre-cleanse "austerities" immediately following our meeting on Friday night. But MAN I was really hungry and really tired because I hadn't eaten since 11:30am and hadn't stopped for a second, bounced right into class at 5:30 and then the meeting. Whew! So I felt justified in pushing off my start time for Saturday.

Then Saturday I taught my class, taught Sarah's class and then deep-cleaned the studio, having only eaten a Bobo bar. So by 3pm, MAN I was really hungry and really tired and had worked hard. So I felt justified in pushing off my start time for Saturday night and dove directly into a Veg Burrito at Chipotle, complete with sour cream and cheese. And then late Saturday night I made aloo mutter (Indian potatoes and peas), very cleansy, we're on track now! But, then I decided it would be best to finish off all the bread products in the house NOW (including the frozen Paratha) so I'm not tempted next week. As if frozen paratha wouldn't keep in the freezer until after the cleanse...

Sundays we have a breakfast ritual of egg sandwiches. This includes bread, butter, cheese and eggs. I'm *pretty* sure not a single ingredient in this meal is on the lengthy list of approved foods I gave you. But when I made them, I decided they would be like the Last Supper, a final send off before we REALLY started pre-cleansing. Now we're getting serious...

I'm sensing a trend...don't eat frequently enough, make up total bull to rationalize and continue naming meals the ceremonial ending of our current habits. This could go on forever! This is a classic example of the Higher Self (Big I) witnessing the little self (little i) up to her usual antics. Insightful AND humorous! The Cleanse provides just the accountability i need to wake up!

I'm going to the grocery store now to REALLY get serious. I mean it this time! :)

Happy noticing,
G