Man my head hurts
I'm not sure really where I am going with this if only to share some of my experience this far. I have really felt horrible, so far my head will not stop hurting , I think at least 20 times today I said "Man my head hurts". I'm sure it's the lack of caffeine that is the culprit even though I never felt that I was dependent on it. To me it was always something that came along with my lovely diet pepsi that I drank 2 cans of a day. I'm getting kind of pissed that I can't have the things that I want and realizing that is exactly how I feel about the things in my every day life that I want (not just food). Things like another child, a bigger house, thinner thighs I'm not really sure where I'm going with this and how this experience will change me from where I am now.
I guess more to come!!
posted by Michelle Oberbroeckling @ 9:31 PM
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4 Comments:
Michelle,
I feel for you. Hang in there - you are not alone.
Allison
hi michelle,
sorry to hear you're feeling so rotten. something good is coming from it in that you feeling so bad and sharing it is illustrating the importance of pre-cleansing, even for people doing the cleanse the second time around. it's not just a matter of "can you deprive yourself for a week", it is "can you honor your body for a week" and that includes honoring it with the pre-cleanse as well. so thank you so much for sharing your misery and know that we're all here thinking of you and wishing you sukha (ease) and sthira (steadiness) on the remainder of your path. don't give up!!!
Michelle,
You are not alone. I so related to you this morning. I also find myself wanting for more than what I have instead of stepping back and being grateful for what I do have.At times like these it helps me to get my mind off me and focus on helping someone else. It is hard and takes a big person to admit it but knowing the problem is half the battle. Changing how we view things and not comparing is the steps we take. One breath at a time. I am a diet coke addict, plus coffee. All I can say is green tea, green tea. I am not sure why I have been spared the headache, maybe green tea or else I still have so much overflow still in my system.
I also wanted to say I related to you about the humandoings instead of humanbeings. I am more like you husband in this case and I just saw it. Whenever we get a chance I always have us going and doing instead of just being. I am going to work on that. Thank you!
Michelle,
I was listening to the radio, and right before I read your note they played the song, "You Can't Always Get What You Want". That seemed appropriate. The next line in the song, after the title, is, "But if you try sometime, you just might find, you get what you need."
What I "want" is about a gallon of Starbucks coffee, followed by a large steak and a bottle of cabernet. What I "need" is to stop poisoning myself. This cleanse is definitely helping me get what I need. I hope it's helping you get what you need too.
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