Square Peg
Do you ever feel like there's something more you should be doing with your life? But you just can't seem to figure it out? No doubt it was this very feeling that led me to yoga (and all of you) 10 months ago. And yet...here I am again (still?) hearing that call, feeling that undeniable pull toward something. I just can't for the life of me figure it out.
I DO know that I'm not living up to my full potential. I've settled for a job that requires nothing more of me than to show up (I basically sort & shelve books at the public library during the school year). I think the sad truth is that I'm afraid of making the "wrong" choice - that if I really put myself out there to do what makes my heart sing, then I'll have to follow through. I'll have to live up to that standard and deep down I guess I'm afraid that I won't be able to do it. Not to mention that this would require KNOWING what makes my heart sing! Therein lies the rub. ;)
Fear keeps me stuck. I know that. My question is - how to move past the fear to get to get the answers I'm seeking? I can think of all sorts of things that I would enjoy doing, but I can think of even MORE reasons why I couldn't possibly do those things. I'll be 42 next month and I feel like I should have my proverbial shit together. But my reality is that I'm a little square peg trying my best not to get noticed as I work myself into places I don't fit.
I'm sharing this in hopes of eliciting feedback from those who may feel (or have felt) similarly - or even just thoughts on how to begin getting unstuck. :)
~ Leslie
posted by Anonymous @ 3:52 PM
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Dude I know I totally feel the same way. I am a tride and true "when then" person when I have my second child then I can..... The truth is that may never happen and if it does I may be missing out on other things that may benefit not only myself but the entire universe.
I must say however that I am so thankful for the times that I do get to "peek out" from behind my veil. I have been praying and trying to let go of all the things that bind me. All the what ifs and just realize that I should be doing the things I love regardless of what I look like. People are so judgemental of things that they know nothing about.
Thanks Leslie for posting this I truly think that we all feel this way and are just looking for our place to shine. I will keep praying and stepping out of the easy way and some day I know that it will come.
Love to you my friend
MO
be present, be still, listen to your big I. You are listening to your little i. You have a beatiful spirit. You know! You really do! I can feel that you do know. Listen only to your big I (your higher self). it's there in your posting. Namaste, mike
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