Spring "Fever" Blossoms
Monday evening the Spring bug got the best of me. After teaching my class, I became very ill: light-headed, nauseous, head-splitting headache. So ill that I couldn't make the 10 minute drive home without pulling over on the side of the road. The rest of the evening was spent in bed. At first I felt like a wimp! But what good would that do? I began searching for the deeper layer of meaning in this set back. I remembered something I read in the Immersion handout about the toxins entering the bloodstream too quickly may result in a variety of unwanted symptoms as those I'd experienced. Although this was related to eating fruits, I had to face a harsh reality. I had to admit to myself the drastic disaster I was creating by my food choices. A diet with so little nutrients is bound to have it's way! And so it has, but not without a positive shift in concsciousness.
I began to ask "why?" I don't eat what's best for my being. Afterall, I feed my children veggies and fruits and the right amount protien. These little beings are my greatest teachers; amazing with their own internal guide to what is good for them. I've often watched Abby (age 4) choose an apple over a cookie or help herself to raw veggies to feed her snack time. When she chooses sweets, she knows her limits--interesting! When she's tired, she takes a rest break. Hmmm. When do we grow out of this?
I believe the answer to my own question is a complex mixture of: missing out on the cooking gene at birth--teased for following a cookbook instead of instinct; a lifetime of comforting my emotions with sugar-infested food, happy, sad, angry etc...; and a weak will. So now that I know this, I will press on. Although my cleanse experience was interrupted by my Springtime bug, I do not feel defeated. I feel awakened to seeking a higher path of healthy eating. I do need help though, and all suggestions are welcome ie: cookbooks, recipes, mantras.
I wish each of you a fantastic journey in the competion of your cleanse.
Love & Encouragement to all,
Anita Bailey
P.S. I have not taken another sip of coffee!!!
posted by Anonymous @ 9:50 AM
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2 Comments:
Anita,
I hope you are feeling better. I'm thinking of you! My tendency is also to reach for that high sugar item whenever my emotions are a little rocky.
As for cookbooks, I like the Moosewood series (although some recipes can take some time). However, my "secret" to finding good cookbooks is to "audition" them first. I'll check them out from the library (often a couple of times). Only then will I purchase a cookbook.
Lots of love,
Allison
Poor karma yogi Anita, I hope you heal quickly with our well wishes behind you.
As someone who gives so much to others, perhaps you need to inspire yourself by realizing that what you put in and how you take care of yourself directly determines the quality of what you give to others.
Get well soon sister.
Love,
G
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