The Insights Just Keep Coming

Hello friends!
I had a very profound insight a little while ago and wanted to share it. (Feel free to skim because this might be long!) Gina knows this about me, but I'm not sure the rest of you do. I have been struggling with a very negative body image, especially as my body ages and changes. You might say that I have been deeply invested in the "small i" for a long time. Just being comfortable in my own skin has been a struggle.

So, this morning in class - we're doing the partner work and I have a man (who is not my husband) KNEELING ON MY BUTT!!...I don't think twice about it! It wasn't until I got home today that I realized how un-self conscious I was and what a huge thing that is for me. That was a humorous realization mind you, but then I realized it goes even deeper. When I was 23, I was assaulted during an armed robbery and was hit from behind with a shotgun. While that was a long time ago, I still have severe trust and intimacy issues as a result. Therapy helped me work through the immediate stuff like nightmares, etc. But all these years later, I realized that my body still suffers from the trauma.

I have no doubt that my yoga practice has helped bring me to a place where I am able to dare to open up and trust. It is in the collective energy of our kula that we are healing one another and I certainly felt that healing energy today. From the bottom of my (newly opened) heart, I thank you and I love you all.
Leslie