Bring back that loving feeling
I dont' know what has come over me, but today I woke up in the foulest mood I can ever recall! It was so bad in fact, that my husband suggested an exorcism. I sat & meditated (or attempted to at any rate) and was astounded at all the emotions I was experiencing just in that moment! There was anger, fear, sadness, frustration - not a warm fuzzy to be found!
I'm thinking that since I had such a profound experience last week, and my little heart has been closed off for so long - that I've lost my equilibrium.
Are any of you experiencing anything like that? Bless your heart if you are ;)
I'll keep you posted,
Leslie
posted by Anonymous @ 1:55 PM
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Hi Leslie,
Not quite as strong as your description but yes, I too am feeling a wee bit intolerant and grouchy. Perhaps this is the most important part of our cleanse experience, the UNPLEASANT reassimilation into real, boring life. Kind of like Michelle suggested in her smoking post. Maybe it was actually easy to cleanse when all we thought about was each other. Collectively we did something extraordinary to our hearts and they're wide open and we are extra sensitive and susceptible to the stuff flooding in from others and the stuff gushing out from ourselves. A true test of our discipline and a true detoxification, no?
We're still here for each other and I love that we're continuing to use our blog site as the cleanse essentially continues.
When in a foul mood, I remind myself that everything is impermanent. This is amazingly horrendous and powerful now but it goes away. You can never make the ocean stand still, it just keeps moving and changing like all of life.
Love and a big hug,
G
PS - I needed a second meditation today and it was extremely challenging. The first one was before my day really started and it was idyllic, no problem! The second one was well into my day and I was ALL OVER THE PLACE! And, I learned something from both!
I think I did experience something similar...I could not wake up, I kept sleeping and sleeping and sleeping I think I was just depressed that I didn't need to rise and drink my colon cleanser and I didn't have anywhere to go for the day.
I have recognized that and now I am trying to work with it and realize that a normal human being does not need that much sleep and I got myself moving after I posted my smoking blog I did feel better.
Much Love to you all and I will see you this week at the studio
MO
Suffice to say, there was a Charlie Brown cloud over the world yesterday!! It's funny how many people had a crappy day yesterday, kula yogis and not! But hurray, it passed like we knew it would. Don't forget about your potential, no matter how rotten other things seem.
leslie, that is a very common response after such an intense release last week. you will be fine. noticing (be mindful)is important. mike
I feel lost myself, I miss the closeness mentally and physically. The cleanse was such a moving expierience for me I am finding hard to be in the moment I keep finding myself in last week !!!I think the hardest part is not seeing everyones smiling faces at 7am!! love, Becky J.
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